- Mood:
Affection
My brother is leaving tomorrow for the Czech Republic, and I'm so sad. I knew he was going to leave eventually but it's awful. I love him so much. Everything that I've ever done in my life was to meet his standards. The reason that I ever wanted to be an artist was because of him. It's so hard to type right now, I can't even refrain my tears. I hate that he's leaving, but I'm so happy for him. I'll even miss it when he yells at me, or puts me down or plays his guitar loud in the middle of the night, and when he talks loud while I try to sleep. I love him so much. I'm so depressed that he's leaving, my favorite person in the world. He always wanted a little sister.
Good luck, Anthony!
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Everyone got off school to take Anthony to the airport. It was me, my mom, Lexi, Anthony, and Alexa in our car, and Dylan and Kyle followed. All of the girls cried. Lexi was the first, then Alexa, then me and then my mom. Anthony couldn't stand the sight of us crying and I'm certain that he cried himself at some point today. We all hugged him, it was so sad. Just today the reality set in. No one would ever be there to drive around in the middle of the night with me, or to turn off the lights in my room before I went to sleep because I was scared. No one ask me why I was crying or tell me that it was okay when our parents fought. Upon getting home to our house, everyone called it Anthony's house. Kyle almost called Dylan Anthony, and both Dylan and Kyles' eyes were red like they wanted to cry but couldn't. I can never easily tell him that I cried for many nights after he left, and how I would never feel safe in our part of the house. And the hallway would always be scary because it would never again be lit by the light that peeked underneath his door from his lamp. I'll miss how we would come home to him playing Moonlight Sinata on the piano so loud. I honestly feel like has died. Everyone who knew him knows that life as we know it will never be the same while he's in Prouge. Lexi is putting her graduation money towards a trip to Prouge to see him. We all loved him so much. Kyle got everything of worth that he owned and gave it to anything like it was nothing to show how much he would miss him. Alexa and Anthony will supposedly never meet again, because she's leaving after his visit and going to California. We all knew that Anthony loved Alexa, no matter how much he tried to hide it. Dylan was Anthony's best friend for /so/ long. Me and my mom go without saying.
I'm sorry this is so long, and probably poorly written, but I couldn't go without saying something.
I need to get over this, and realize that he won't be gone forever.
If this seems like an overreaction, you don't know my brother the way that I do.
=W=
edit2;;
My brother is all settled, his roommate is from London, and they went grocery shopping. I'm so happy that he's enjoying Prouge! I feel much better now, and I really would like to go and visit. Someday :9
Ohoho! 
Pleased
Llama
